#35 Normal is never what I was really aiming for.

And not just because normal is boring, or not 'cool' or whatever.
I'd say that my 'normal' outlook on life is pretty damn dark.

Some people look at the dark and are afraid, I look at darkness, and I feel indifference.

I guess people would say that a dark outlook on life is wierd. I mean, I look at things with a rather squed perspective anyway, much influenced due to reading such things as 'Ghost World' (excellent film/graphic novel btw, well worth watching/reading. Actually, now that I think about it, I think I picked up Ghost World at the library when I was little more than 8, so that could explain a few things) and tv shows like 'Invader Zim'. I mean, I find myself attracted to the darker things in life. But dark isn't always bad, Edward Scissorhands is dark, but it's also enchanting and moving.

If the colour of our souls reflected our natures, I'd say mine would be pretty damn grey.

Taking into account the behaviourist approach to behaviour and beliefs, it would be said that I've learnt this behaviour and belief system from my enviroment, so in fact. I've learnt this from the society I disdain so much.

But...

One particular bone I have to pick with (western)society is that it encourages us all to be individuals, but we already know how that goes, when everyone's special, no-one is. But then it also expects us to be not so much of an individual that it interferes with anything.
So...

• Be an individual, be as much you as you possibly can
• But fit in as well
  

What?! So along with the pressure of attempting to stand out from the crowd, you'll have to do that at a level that isn't offensive to anyone else, and on top of that, you have to do it while fitting it! Now that just seems pretty ridiculous to me.

Some people argue that we all want to 'fit in', I don't agree, I'd say instead that we all want to belong, and belonging and fitting in are two vastly different things. It would seem though, that some people have a hard time of belonging. Maybe they should form their own communities, but then again, I don't think a society of society hating people would work that much.

So I guess my Utopian vision of society would be the kind of sprawling industrial/metropolis with undertones of a 1984-esque government, in which everyone is either plainly aware of the failings of society, or so lost in the turning the decaying gears of said society that they don't even notice. The buildings would all look rather greywashed, and gothic. So really more of a dystopia than anything else. I guess what I'm grasping at is somewhere between city17 and Equilibruim. But then again, I can't really see myself doing other than what I'm doing now, except people would see what I'm getting at. (also, I'd be part of the anarchist underground movement that overthrows the corrupt totalitarist government, just cause I'm cool like that)

The feeling that you just don't belong in society ebbs away at me quite a lot sometimes. I openly mock those who assert to continue along the meaningless existence that is provided to them by the current social order in place, not because I am jealous, for that seems rather a hypocritical thing to do, being envious of a place in a humanity that I just plain despise?

The thing is, I know exactly what I'm trying to say, but I don't know if you will.
And if you don't, if you think that what I'm saying is utter rubbish, well then, you're excersizing your right to have an opinion, an essential part of your individuality.
But remember, don't take having an individual opinion too far, 'cause you've got to fit in too ;]

Keep safe out there, It's a crazy world.

#34 Tonight is going to be disgusting

Right, So it's my sister's birthday, fair do.

WRONG

Because she has four, yes FOUR friends staying over.
My house is made of screaming and running, srsly


Who on earth thought that this was going to ever be a good idea deserves to be hanged or blown up, or something.
I really really really am NOT looking forward to this evening, when sleepover activities begin, I have no idea what they're gonna be doing, but I'm sure it'll be loud and annoying and drive me to distraction.

Thank GOD they're all sleeping downstairs tonight, otherwise I'd be up with giggling all frakking night.

On a good note however, yesturday I decided on digging out my old gameboy (because I'd found pokémon red while cleaning out my room) and playing some pokémon today at school, I also relocated my pokémon yellow and gold. Playing yellow atm, it's damn good times.Couldn't manage to find my crystal yet though. But I will.
It will be mine. Oh yes. It will be mine.
(Kudos to who can guess the movie that's from)

Also
Is much welcome here, perhaps they'll all run away or something if he turns up.

*sigh*

Back to the noise, gonna go find my headphones and play some cs:s or something, might even listen to white noise, anything that isn't 11year old screams would be nice.

Keep your houses 11year old girl free people!

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#33 I just remembered

The other film that we watched.

It was Zac and Miri make a porno.
Knew I'd forgotten something :P

Told you my memory was rubbish.

#32 Motherfucking April fools

Has been crap this year, the only thing I've actually seen done is that moot has changed the font on 4chan to Comic Sans MS, which to be fair, is damn annoying (+internets for moot). Oh and slashdot running a story that thepiratebay has been bought up by Warner Bros, at least, I hope that one is an April fool's, the world's largest torrent tracker selling out to a huge corperate giant would be super lame.

Also, Emily wanted a mention, and since she specifically asked, she can has one.

Hi Emily!!
Apparently, I'm old, and that dude. Whatever really, I suppose I could be, I think therefore I'm an old waving dude, or however that goes.

But I don't think I really have anything to talk about today, my day at school was rather less than tollerable, as it was way more boring than usual, and I was, and still am really tired, since Sam dropped me back home after movie night at his at 2am. Infact yeah, lets talk about that.
We watched

1. Shark in Venice
2. Bender's Game (In HD =])

At least, those are the two I can remember, my memory being a matter of much speculation (mostly to myself, as to why it's so crap).

Firstly, Shark in Venice is fucking lulzworthy, recieving a blockbuster worthy 2.9/10 from IMDB. To be fair, I don't remember many particulars of the film, since I was playing Age of Empires(The 1st one bitches, I know you all envy me :P) and trying to watch at the same time. But yeah, sharks.....and Venice, you don't even need to see it to imagine how fun that film is, oh and treasure too, not that you needed treasure in a film about sharks. But it was a good plot device so that they could include the fucking MAFIA, awesome huh? Shark in Venice, and it's hillariously small Wiki article can be found here, and if you're intrested, tough luck, you can't buy it anywhere casue it sucks so much.

Bender's Game on the other hand, you can buy, becuase it's Futurama and it frakking rawks. I'm not gonna tell you anything about it, cause you need to watch it, it's frakking Futurama. Look, here's a revelant picutre.
Anyway, that's my average of two pictures per blog achieved, and I can't think of anything more I wanna write, so I'll bid you all adieu.

Have a good one people.

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